I Love You

I love you. I truly love you!

No matter how you react, refuse, confuse or reject, there is one thing you cannot denial, I Love You!

Do you know how sad i am when you cry via the phone? my tears are almost reach the threshold, but i hold it back for you, because i could not show how easily i am influenced by you.

Do you know when you hiccup, my heart feels as pain as you do? How can i let my love to suffering in such painful event? I'm so sorry that let you experienced this.

Well, I'm not your love. and i guess, we will never be together.

Our identities are not allowed to be in a relationship. It is prohibited, it is violation of the rules, it is unethical and etc. But the most importantly, you have no idea how much i love you.

You told me that you are under stress, i truly feel it and i hope that i can bear for you, but i cannot. You say how useless are you, i immediately say no, because you do not know how much you mean to me. Each time you passed by, my heartbeat will stop for a while and breathless, the entire world, my vision will become tunnel vision, there is only you are in my eyes and my world.

You feel suffered in this world and you do not understand why the world is so cruel to you. At here, i just want to tell you, no matter how much you suffered, disbelief, underestimate, disappointment, angry by others, I will be the one who always support, understand, encourage, trust, console and of course, Love you!

I will fight everything for you to help you and guide you, because i know, i'm not the person who can offer the love to you. I'm truly understand and accept the fact, Do not worry, i'm get used to it.

I trust what you told me and i will try my best to protect you from the rumor, and gain back your reputation, no matter how. I promise you will do my best to protect you meanwhile searching you love one. I promise.

My heart is pain while you are crying, I wish i could hold you and console you, but i can't, because of our identity. What i can do is listening your pain and tears as my heart and tears synchronize with you. I could feel your pain because you tears make me so uncomfortable even until now.

I say we will be with you. We refer to your friends as well. But i guess, I could be the only one who trust you from deep bottom of my heart. I tell myself, I will always be with you, no matter how. As long as you remember me.

This letter will not hand out to anybody nor telling you face to face as long as you could not aware how much i love you, the way i concerning you. It is not important that you know how much i love you but how much you love yourself and be strong for your entire life.

I want to see your smile. Your smile can calm me down and melt my heart and i feel the beauty of the world, truly because of you! Let go the unhappy, focus on now, let's your smile once again to shine, and save my soul with your genuine, happy lovely smile!

This letter may have many grammatical mistake but i think, errors cannot stop my true inner feeling that can penetrate to your bottom of your heart as you truly can feel my love towards you! 

Again, I love You!